Today was a tough day.
I went to my first funeral of one of my patient’s. The first of many to come. That may sound really weird until you find out that I am a Medical Social Worker and work with terminally ill patients that don’t have very much time left in their lives. My patient was also buried at the same cemetery my mom is buried. Seriously life. Of ALL THE cemeteries in Los Angeles County it had to be that one? Whatever, that’s fine. It doesn’t come as a surprise at all. Just another way my mom is looking after me and telling me that she is still around. Actually it was kind of nice. I got to go to her grave site after the memorial and I brought along the Chaplin I work with and he said a nice prayer for me. I myself am a very non-religious person but I actually asked him to pray for me and my mom. It was special and comforting and I liked it. I will leave it at that.
Additionally, I am having some relationship issues. Or better yet, I will say that at this juncture in my life I am newly single. I know I am about to receive a storm of texts and emails from my friends asking what happened and more importantly why I am so secretive and weird when it comes to my relationships ending. I just am. I can’t explain it other than that. I am a weirdo. I can’t stand writing about my relationship on Facebook, I barely talk about them in person and I definitely don’t update people when things are going poorly. It’s like I have purposely carved out a section in my life where I don’t let anyone “touch” or better yet hear about. I guess why that is so bizarre is the fact that aside from that I let everyone know my business no matter if they like it or not. For example: Have you gone #2 today Deanna? Nope, Never. Girls don’t poop.
Terrible Segway: It’s FOOD TIME!!!!
Morning: Coffee + Strawberries + Grapes + Peach = Zero Points
Snack = 1 rice cake = 1 point
Lunch = I was STARVING and didn’t eat until 3pm so I made a terrible life choice and got a happy meal from Mcdonalds. I didn’t eat half the bun of my barf burger so the meal ended up only being 9 points total (fries included)
Snack = Granola Bar = 3 points
Dinner = Turkey Patty + Mustard + Pickle + Strawberries + Orange Juice = 8 points
Jolly Ranchers= 3 points
I have 7 points left for today and I feel like I ate a Thanksgiving meal 10x in a row. I am going to attribute that to the fact that I’m in a sad mood. Actually, my sad mood brings me to what I really want to talk about and that’s how hilarious my best friend, Danielle is. She is newly obsessed with this “Horse Lovers” App on the Iphone. It allows you to insert real life pictures of horses in your already existing pictures. All day she has been stealing pictures off of my Facebook and implanting horses in them and sending them to me to make me laugh. It’s working. REALLY WELL. Here they are for your enjoyment. I hope you don’t like them too much because she’s MY BEST FRIEND and I am not willing to share her.
So that’s about it for the day. My food intake and body feel pretty good but my brain hurts and my heart feels like barfing on itself. I know all of my friends love me very much and I love them but I just want to say that I am ok, everything will be alright, no need to reach out to me (especially on Facebook) and you never know what the future holds in terms of me working things out with him. ORRRRRRRRR perhaps my dog will magically turn into a human and then turn into a man and we can fall in love and live happily ever after. Man, that would rule so hard.