It’s late and I’m exhausted so this post is going to be short and unrelated to what I did this weekend. I am going to blog about this weekend’s activities in tomorrow’s post 🙂
For some reason I feel compelled to post pictures of the time I went White Water Rafting with Danielle and talk about how I do this weird thing which is doing things that scare me (Ie: White Water Rafting.)
There are a lot of things that scare me that I will not do like entering a closet with the lights out while someone tells ghost stories in the other room, I will not play Bloody Mary by myself or eat oysters or sniff someone’s armpit after a day without deodorant. I will always not go on a no-carb diet…..the list goes on.
What I can say though is there are some things in life that right out of the gate scare the living crap out of me, yet there is a voice in my head saying “Do it. Just do it and see what happens. Maybe you will like it. If you don’t then that’s ok but at least you tried it.”
White Water Rafting is a perfect example of this. I DO NOT LIKE WATER SPORTS. I do not like the lose of control I feel in the water, I do not like the mystery of what is floating around my feet or touching my legs, I do not enjoy the power of nature pulling me into it’s tide, slamming waves on my head while I gasp for air and various other uncomfortable events that happen in the water. I don’t like how my bathing suit never seems to stay on my body like this one time when a wave hit me so hard that it knocked my bikini top off and my brother was the one to tell me that my boob was hanging out. EMBARRASSING. I don’t even like fish unless I am eating them at a table or staring at them in a fish tank at the dentist office. I have been snorkeling before and even swam with dolphins, yet I couldn’t manage to calm down enough to REALLY enjoy myself. I had a WAYYYYY BETTER time jumping out of an airplane then I do hanging out in a lake. I am weird. I know this.
Also, I have little to no upper body strength so EVERY TIME I have been thrown off a jet ski etc., I can never manage to get myself back on the motorized craft/boat without ample help from whoever is laughing hysterically at me. Maybe I will get over this fear or go with someone that makes me feel completely safe. So far I haven’t found a hero so my continued fear will stick around.
So here are some pictures of me completing my mission to go White Water Rafting in Kings River in Northern California despite being so scared I felt like dying a little. Notice, Danielle enjoying herself ….she is a water person.
I am happy that I did this two years ago but I am not sure if I would do it again. My impulsive and spontaneous nature tells me yes but I know I would still be scared. The one thing I did take away from this experience was the fact that I did it…I didn’t let my fear block me, I took a risk and I accomplished something I never thought I could do. The result is having these pictures and memories to look back on and laugh at myself.
Good Night Everyone XO